One Saturday Morning...

It had been a very busy week. It was Friday and everything was just in the way…We had an argument the night before and in the early morning he simply sent me a message stating that “life is darn so hard”…I did not have a good night sleep…He too kept on turning and tossing all night long…but when I got his message I called him and tried hard to comfort my betterhalf…

…and I think I somehow heard him smile…sigh!!! Few hours later I sent him a text message, ” hi there! why don’t we go out of this busy town this weekend…let’s escape reality even for just a few hours”…he texted back, “I like that”…and later that afternoon it seemed as though the night before never existed…he kissed me…and I kissed him back…I embraced him…and he squeezed me so tight that it seemed as though we never had those “oh so tight hugs” for such a very long time…and then we smiled…shared some breath taking old memories…and then we laugh hard…so hard that after some time we were breathless…and then we gazed into each others eyes and suddenly we were in tears…tomorrow will be a very exciting day…

Come Saturday morning, we were excited somehow but it was a lazy lazy lazy Sabado morning! But we promised that we’ll escape reality for awhile…and so we hopped into our baby “KIWI” and suddenly we uttered the words, “we’re going to Monterey”…While we were on our way we turned on the radio and listened to various kinds of music then we found ourselves singing along with “The Fray” (You found me…you found meh….)…and then we listened intently with “Carrie Underwood’s” Jesus take the wheel and we agreed that we both love the song…etc.etc.etc. and we came to realize that yes!?! we do have something in common…

We went to see the beach…It was magnificent…We were silent for awhile…He was busy with his own thoughts and I was so busy with mine as well. And then we sat there staring at the glorious sight…It was heavenly…It was undeniably beautiful. And then we both managed to take deep breaths…and finally we uttered the words…It’s a very beautiful day…and after a few more hours we finally said “tara uwi na tayo”…

This had been one of the very few days that I would like to last forever…It’s just one of the very rare moments that I would like to remember for the rest of my life…We had a lot of pictures taken…but I would like to remember the story behind those meaningful smiles…
Yes indeed…LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!

It's a New Year...It's a New Day...

Sunday January 06th 2008, 8:02 pm

Where was I a year ago? I think I was sitting on the same side of this bed trying to scribble a lot of unforgetable events on my diary.

A year ago I wasn’t jumping for joy when everybody was holding their breath while waiting for the New Year countdown, instead I was trying to show a happy face. Secretly I was hoping that nobody would notice that I was emotionally disturbed.
I’ve had a sudden transition in my life and it’ws hard for me to comprehend on it. No words can perfectly described how I felt at that moment. I was holding back and I was afraid of letting go….

But this year I’m moving on…This time there’s no more turning back…This time I’m willing to accept my destiny…and this time I’m willing to let go….

Gone are the ol’e days where I have to simply look outside the window and ponder hard about some significant circumstances…It’s time to go out and be a part of that wonderful scenery….
Life isn’t all about crying your heart out and wishing that things could have been different….There’s no use in dwelling in the past because what has been done has been done–P-E-R-I-O-D….But we can always do something about the present…and we still have a lot of time ahead of us….Let’s learn from the past instead….

Happy are those who can stand after a bad fall…Happy are those who are last but were always able to finish the race…

Life isn’t all about the destination it’s always all about the journey….
Life is beautiful….Let’s enjoy it while we still can…Minsan lang tayo mabubuhay…Let’s make the most out of it….
Happy New Year!!!
ciao!

Feeling senti lang…winter na kc…

Tuesday November 27th 2007, 9:34 pm

Sa isang sulok ako’y nagmamasid…tila may pangamba sa paligid…may nagbabadyang babala…subalit bakit ganun…hindi ko maintindihan ang nais nitong ipahiwatig….parang nabubulag ang aking mga mata… nabibingi ang aking mga tenga…hindi makatakbo ang aking maliliit na mga paa…at hindi makasigaw ang aking bunganga ng saklolo…

Kailan titila ang pagbuhos ng ulan…kelan tatahimik ang kapaligiran…kelan ko malalaman na ang lahat ay maayos na…kailan ko masasabing wala ng bagyo…kailan ko masasambit ang mga katagang…”TAPOS NA…”

Marahil sa katapusan ng taong ito malalaman ko rin ang kasagutan sa aking mga katanungan…mababawasan ang lumbay…unti-unting mawawala ang mga namumuong pag-iimbot at pang-agam-agam…matatapos din ang paghihinagpis…mawawala ang tandang patanong sa bawat salita na sasambitin…sa halip lahat ay unti-unting magtatapos sa tandang-padamdam…

At lahat ay magkakaroon ng pagbabago…magkakaroon ng bagong saysay ang aking bagong mundo…

Mawawala na ang lumbay… at ang bagong buhay ay magkakaroon ng bagong saysay…

cheers everyone…Happy HOLIDAYS…

nagpapakasenti kc malapit na naman ang pasko ... hehehehe

Let's Talk...(it helps)

Monday August 27th 2007, 5:45 pm

Moments like this usually makes me sit down infront of the computer that eventually leads me to slowly type my thoughts and feelings as if trying to narrate every significant event in my life in public…

Hmmm….I’m sensing however that you might know the reason for my being in a senti mode…how do I start…well let me see…

Life is really unpredictable. Sometimes you rejoice at every microsecond for having the best time of your life…There are also times when you have to whine and whine about the horrible truths that envelops our existence…At times you need to be scared and vulnerable about the million possibilities of plans A, B, C and etc …I guess we’re just thankful that homosapiens like ourselves are endowed with the ability to adapt to change…

We were created to know how it feels like to enjoy life as it is…Which means that we’re thankful that we can laugh at funny jokes, we know how to raise a brow when somebody breaks a corny punchline…we know how to jump for joy when we hear a good news…we know how it feels like to get hurt physically…and we just know that it’s harder to cope with emotional disturbance than that of the physical pain…

It’s been two weeks…I just miss them…It’s hard to leave your old life behind…It’s hard to be who you are meant to be…Sometimes it’s hard to face the fact the children have to have a life of their own…I often wonder how would I react when my kids have to go out of our lovely home…how would I feel if a guy would ask for her hand and eventually I had to let her go…how would I feel if a good son of my mine would ask me to give him my blessings for him to start a life of his own…

Probably that’s how my parents felt when they had to leave me behind…there was a good reason though…I learned a lot of things…I’ve realized that I wasn’t my dad’s girl anymore…and I am no longer my mom’s stage baby anymore…but I missed my baby sister being by my side as always though…

I believe my new life is a special gift…It’s my turn to experience how it feels like to have a family of my own…

I guess this is the circle of life…Life indeed is quite a story…It has a beginning…but we ourselves don’t exactly know it’s very own ending…

Let’s keep on writting…Life isn’t all about the destination…It’s all about the journey…Let’s talk about our funny rides…our sorrowful defeats…let’s talk about our happy thoughts…our deepest aspirations…Let’s talk about relationships…better yet let’s talk about our families…our friends…Let’s talk about that black dog that made our day…or maybe let’s talk about the nimbus and cumulus clouds that we just appreciated this morning…hmmm…let’s just talk about us…let’s talk about you and me…your joys…my tears…your lonesome nights…my laughters…

Let’s just talk…it helps…

Just Me and the New Day...

Friday July 13th 2007, 7:25 am

Isang bagong umaga ang siyang tumambad sa aking harapan…Himig ng mga ibon ang siyang bumungad sa aking pandinig…Kay sarap ng pakiramdam na pagmulat ng aking mga mumunting mata bagong umaga ang aking nasilayan…

Paglabas ko ng aming tahanan malalanghap ko ang sariwang hangin…Maaninag ko ang ganda ng tanawin…Isang bagong umaga at bagong buhay na naman ang aking haharapin…
Salamat sa nakaraang bagyo…marahil kundi dahil dito di ko maaaninag ang kagandahan ng bagong araw…marahil kundi dahil sa nakaraang unos hindi ko makikita ang kagandahan ng bagong hinaharap…marahil kung hindi sa masalimuot na paligid hindi ko matututunang bigyang pansin ang kagandahan ng maaliwalas na paligid…

Ngayon tapos na ang ulan…wala ng baha…tumila na ang malakas na ihip ng hangin…Ako’y nagpapasalamat sa pagkat ako’y hindi natangay sa alon na dulot ng sama ng panahon…ngayon masasambit ko ng buong lakas na NAPAKAGANDA NG BAGONG UMAGA!