Thursday December 27th 2007, 5:38 pm Another year is about to end…one last smile…one last glance…one last sweet goodbye….
As I watched everybody rushing for the after christmas sale suddenly I was caught staring at the four cornered clearance rack…I can’t help but smile…It must be odd for passers by to see me in this manner but I didn’t care…I’ve been staring at the same rack when I first came to Olney with my friend Minnie…She was teaching me where to find affordable yet adorable stuff for our new apartment…It was fun hanging out with her…For the very first time I enjoyed going out with a friend…She was the kind of person that I enjoyed talking over the phone for hours when my depression was at its peak…A call from her and I’d stop crying…A cheerful , ” let’s go out and drink coffee at Ophelia’s cup, ” had always been music to my ears….hahaha…I must admit in a place like this I agree 100% that no man is an island….hehehe…I miss those girly outings…I miss those funny talks that we used to have…I miss those mellow and heart to heart talks….Now she has 2 kids…our calls became less frequent…our hang-outs became from every week days to every once in a “blue moon”…I guess that’s what you call growing up…Now I’m beginning to realize that we’re no longer girls but we’re both grown-ups…Now I understand that to grow wiser you have to widen your horizon…2007 had been a very fascinating year for me…I’ve been through a lot of ups and downs…I’ve met a lot of new friends…I’ve learned not to let go of my old but I’ve learned to love them more and keep them in ” my safe place”…I’ve learned to face my greatest downfalls…I’ve learned to let my guards down…I’ve learned to share some of my tears…I’ve generously imparted a lot of laughters…I’ve given away a lot of smiles…I’ve had my shares of hugS...I’ve had zillions of things to smile about when talking about 2007…. I have a thousand of stories to share when trying to reminisce about this blessed year….and I must say some of these beautiful memories will make me shed some tear…some will make me bursts out of laughter….some will make me sad for awhile…and some will simply make me smile like I never did before… Goodbye 2007…thank you for the wonderful memories… As I gently close the door…I just know that this coming year will bring another chapter to my life…I may have smiled, laughed and cried for the previous years but I’m sure that I’d still have a lot of reasons to smile, laugh and cry for the year 2008… Somehow I’m excited to see what the other door has to offer…but till then I’m holding my breath and closing my eyes….and with my wide opened arms when the clock stikes 12 on January first I’d say loud and clear, “WELCOME 2008!!!”
Thursday December 20th 2007, 7:49 pm “I.My idea of a perfect ChristmasIs to spend it with youIn a partyOr dinner for twoAnywhere would doCelebrating the yuletide seasonAlways lights up our lives Simple pleasures are made special tooWhen they’re shared with youII:Looking through some old photographsFaces of friends we’ll always rememberWatching busy shoppers rushing aboutIn the cool breeze of DecemberSparkling lights, all over townChildren’s carols in the airBy the Christmas treeA shower of stardust on your hair…”Sounds familiar? The breezy air of December is here again…We see a lot of people rushing for christmas gifts…Friends are getting together, exchanging not just warm hugs…not just sweet smiles but sentiments of what 2007 had in store for us…Sigh! I remember how we used to decorate our homes with christmas lights…I remember how excited we were to put up our christmas trees…Our town plaza must be full of christmas lights right now…Girls and boys are surely hanging around together…sharing kikiam and isaw infront of that Big…Big…Big christmas tree…Moms and Dads are holding each others hands while watching their kids bantering around…Hmmmm…I can smell the sweet and salty popcorn everywhere…The month of December brings a lot of happy old memories…I remember hanging around wih friends at 4 am from December 16 to December 24th…Life was simple but it surely is happy…
When we were kids we usually wish of growing old ASAP…but now that I’m getting old sometimes I wished I stayed young…Christmas used to be exciting…New Years used to be one of the best days of my life…Now I don’t feel like wearing my red christmas outfit anymore…I don’t feel like decorating our love nest…I don’t feel like singing those joyful christmas carols…I don’t even feel like wearing my red lipstick for the time being…BUt I’m just lucky to spend this christmas eve with the man who vowed to spend the rest of his life with me…that’s the only thing that matters right now…I guess I better stop being too emotional….I might not have another christmas if I’d waste this special day by just simply going back to my memory lane….nah….it’s worth looking back…but I should be moving on…and start living a blessed and happy life…Yeah right!!!I just know that this christmas will be different….It will be more than that big bang from the town Plaza…it will be more colorful than the christmas lights of that big…big…big…christmas tree…The cheers will be louder….and the hugs will be warmer…and this christmas will be more unforgettable than the others that I’ve ever had…Enjoy your Christmas!!!Merry Christmas Everybody!!!Enjoy this once in a year event…God bless you and your family….
Ho!ho!ho!
Monday October 22nd 2007, 8:08 am I remember my first day in college…I was wearing my blue polo shirt…with my checkerd black and blue pants…my hair was really short …hahahaa…but I was pretty excited when I sat at the back of our class where everybody was looking at me annoyingly…hahaha…College had been one of the best part of my life…I’ve met 2 wonderful bestfriends…Kuya Ruel Pascua and Karen Alviar…I’ve made really wonderful “barkada”..Ate Cang, Suzzette, Ethelyn, Vicky, Marlon and Arnel…Though we’ve had these close friends I’d still say I love all my college classmates( yup there’s no excemption)..In college I’ve been introduced to the beauty of life…I’ve grown to fall in love with the beauty of Sigmund Freud’s theories…I’ve come to admire the passion of Florence Nightingale to care for people who needs physical assistance…I’ve loved how Mr. Ever Garcia Jr. talked about the heart and how we can prevent and protect ourselves from CHF…and I’ve been amazed with him taking about how we should care for our schizophrenic patients…I’ve really enjoyed Ma’am Jubilo’s class whenever she would introduce us to certain topics about the ethical values that we should have when we are dealing with a life and death situation…I’ve loved Mrs. Zambranos but I was so helpless in her class whereby we really had a hard time coping with the numerous pharmacologic drugs…their actions, contraindications, computation of drug dosage…and the like…How will I ever forget Mam Magpali’s drawing of the fallopian tube infront of us while she imparts the uniqueness of the female reproductive system….I can still remember how Mrs. Mayo taught us to be strategic with our health teachings…I bet my classmates will never forget those “saguidi-saguidi popo” days with mam Casem…The affiliation days made us realize how lucky we were to be endowed with a bountiful life…mam Wilma made us captain of our ships during our grandsocialization…Those ICU duties made us feel like responsible nurses monitoring the vital signs of our patients accurately, checking on the I and O’s of our patients’…Our ER duties made us realize how every minute counts…I really enjoyed having Mam Estella as my clinical instructor during those days…I’ve really really loved my nursery duty whereby I’ve experienced how it feels like to bathe, change the diaper of the baby and of course how feeding can be extraordinarily hard specially for the premature ones…I can still recall how Ate Ressy and I would sneak in to taste the milk formula for the babies…hahaha….My OR duties with mam Connie Bautista is the hardest…I have to admit craniotomy is one of the most interesting operations that I’ve seen but it was one of the longest as well…DR duties made me cry…everytime that a mother sees her child for the very first time made me shed some tears….Our ortho duties with sir Ireneo made us feel so helpless for our patients…but somehow it was fulfilling seeing them recover after a few weeks……Somehow I miss college…The glamour, the spot light…and the true to life experiences nourished each and everyone of us…We owe our Alma Mater a lot…From girls to young ladies….From boys to young men…What we are now is a gift from our Mentors, classmates and friends….
It’s nice to have these wonderful memories….It’s nice to keep in touch with old pals…Dada I really appreciate your calls…Kuya Ruel and She…thanx for your msgs….Karen I really love reading your emails……………………………………..miss you all!!!
Sunday October 21st 2007, 12:16 am He called me from his new apartment…and his vioce was as it was 14 years ago…the same familiar vioce…the same familiar words (”reiterate”–hahaha)…I felt like being in highschool again…where every afternoon my bestfriend Amor would call me for 2 to four hours a day…we’d talk about anything under sun…he would criticize me and yet I can accept every itsy bitsy ugly part of me…we’d talk about other people’s lives and later we’d realize that it wasn’t really our business to be snooping on somebody else’s life…I did run to him several times to cry on with my emotional downfalls…and it felt good to have him by my side always…We haven’t really spoken for years but this afternoon he called me…He isn’t the type of friend who calls you up because he needs a shoulder to cry on…He calls because he wants you to know that somehow he did exist…We did talk about a lot of things that interests us both…We laughed a lot….I have so many bitter and sweet memories in highschool…IN HIGHSCHOOL I had a bunch of things to cry about…but it also gave me zillions of reasons to laugh and enjoy life as it was….I made new friends…and I lost good buddies as well…In highschool I’ve learned a lot from my mentors…my schoolmates…my classmates…my friends…and my lost pals….In highschool I’ve had my first major emotional outbreak…I had my downfalls….yet I had my “this is the moment” experiences…highschool is where I found real friends who sticks with you through thick and thin…and I guess Amor is one of them…Amor thank you for always being there for me…………and thanx for the call…I missed those crazy yet unforgettable conversations that we used to have…
p.s.
thanx for informing me that I should have my hair cut soon…hehehe…
Friday October 12th 2007, 11:02 pm Edit ThisIt’s 6pm and we have a couple of good friends coming over…There’s just 4 of us hanging around savoring the last days of fall…The boys had captain morgan infront of them and the girls are just exchanging ideas on the chiky stuff. Then we started singing… It’s nice to sit around and simply allow every single cell of our body to enjoy the tranquil surrounding…Every adipose tissue helps us cope with the cold weather…Our brain cells are not that drained to feel great to have an honest conversation…–about our past experiences…about our lives today and eventually about our future as well…
All those review materials are draining the girls and the boys are physically exhausted for the week so I guess we really needed a break somehow….Whew…after all those tears and warm thoughts shared we just realized that after 5 years or so while driving our hybrid cars we’ll pass by this old apartment and say, ” somehow I remember one of those cold nights in October when we were just there sitting, singing our lungs out, our eyes were almost shedding those innocent tears, I can still taste the delicious spaghetti, the yummy chicken…and of course how can we ever forget those secrets shared…the precious moments that we witnessed…the lovely conversation…the innocent remembrance of “our past”…and those wonderful friends that we have and we will always cherish…” and upon reaching our destination we will see familiar faces…and we will have another heart warming conversation…the boys will no longer be boys…they’ll be wise men but they’ll still have the same bottle of captain morgan infront of them…the girls will be no longer girls instead they will be knowledgeable women with an additional few letters on their last names…but still they’d have the same chicky conversation…with the same sound of jolly laughter…and the little sweet angels of theirs will be there running along playing around…they’ll have plenty of time laughing at their muddy faces..they’ll have plenty of time exploring their dvd educational tapes..they may pull each other’s hair…or better yet they may have a good baby talk conversation…and the rest of the story is a ” that’s for all of us to find out phrase”…
But then again I’ve realized that a day spent with friends will always be a fruitful memory….
